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  • It seems like just yesterday.

    When you lose someone you love the loss changes you.  It’s not anecdotal, a piece of you dies with the person. The same thing that weakens you, strengthens you.  The thing that took your breath away also gives you reason to breathe.  Early on in my grief I read a quote, “you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have”, I remember thinking whoever came up with that must’ve been through a valley at some point in his or her life.

    On this date, 9 years ago, I said goodbye to one of the greatest persons I have ever had the privilege of knowing. People always tell me I’m doing so well but the truth is I’m fighting to live and not just survive. Yeah I laugh from a deep place again, my smile is genuine, I’ve even loved again. I am committed to living until I die but that doesn’t mean I don’t have my moments. There are days where I wish I could close my eyes and all of this would become a distant memory, days when the world seems so dark and lonely, days when I wonder how in the world did God decide that it was his time to go when there are sooooooo many eligible and viable candidates that do not deserve to walk this Earth.  On those days I stare into eyes that look just like his and remind myself…he was here!

    Always clinking,



  • Invictus:Unconquerable

    If you are a member of a BGLO, an avid reader, and/or attended a school that encouraged literary work in its assignments the word “Invictus” brings up certain feelings/memories for you.  I love this poem but in my youth I found it difficult to reconcile some of its sentences with my faith.  There was no way in the world I was going to recite, “I thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul“.

    What in the blasphemy?

    My faith teaches their is only one God and in my mind repeating this line would be blasphemous and lead to damnation.  As I grew older, I developed and realized that there was a whole meaning behind the poem that did not involve asking monotheistic followers to “sin their souls”.  It wasn’t merely written for a rhyming scheme, instead, the author, William Ernest Henley, found himself in a situation that many would have allowed to pull them under.  I am sure as he sat in the hospital, suffering and dealing with challenges, diagnosed with tuberculosis, which deteriorated further, requiring amputation of one of his legs, Mr. Henley surely felt overcome by his situation.  Life had come at him hard and fast.  I can only imagine, the ways in which isolation led to depression and thoughts of suicide. Not being one to fold, Henley penned Invictus in what must have been his darkest hour.  My head is bloody, but unbowed.

    Mr. Henley penned the way in which his life was to unfold.  He was still here and in the face of tragedy had decided to live until he died.  He was becoming the architect of his destiny!

    In Promised Land by President Barack Obama he discusses his mom being the architect of her own destiny.  He describes how she was not one to let people or society dictate what she should do, how she should act or how she should feel.  His words resonated with me.  I have on more than one occasion fallen victim to life happening to me.  Of course I’ve risen to the occasion but it wasn’t by design.  I defaulted into my architect role, acknowledging God as the master architect.  He knows my ending and everything in between but He won’t force me to follow.  It’s time for me to get on board, to begin designing and creating the life that I want.  I am happy.  I am loved, but I want more.

    In 2020…life happened, to all of us, and we rolled with the punches.  We dealt with what we were handed.  We made lemonade out of lemons…but today is a new day!  The end of a year many did not anticipate and the beginning of a year full of promise. So like I do every year, I welcome 2021 with open arms and I encourage you to do the same.  Grab your pen, your hammer, your chisel, your brush and begin designing the life you want.  I can’t promise you there won’t be any hiccups along the way but I promise I’ll be right here with you.  We are the master of our fates, we are the captains of our soul!

    Invictus–the invincible, the unconquerable!

    See you in the new year!

    Always Clinking,



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    Diagnosis: COVID-19 fatigue

    I am an introvert.  I love spending time alone, it is how I recharge.  But even as an introvert, I am growing weary.  Traveling is my solace and one of my coping mechanisms.  I need the beach.  I need to be beside blue water but while people are still traveling and as my mom would say “spreading joy” I have not brought myself to that place.  I want to travel without restrictions.  I don’t want to stay on the resort.  I don’t want to leave the restaurant by 8pm because of a curfew.  I want to be free!

    Trust me, I am not one of those cabin fever people.  I don’t get cabin fever.  How could I not love staying in the house that I pay for only a few days while the snow purifies the air?  However, this is taking cabin fever to an all new level.  I’m weary of this indoor life.  I’m tired of going out and feeling like the first cough I hear could be from a person infected with the virus.  I am tired of telling my child she can’t visit her friends or go to birthday parties because the truth is…mommy can’t lose her.  So I came up with a term for what I’m feeling.  I call it COVID fatigue (I didn’t really create this term but go with me).

    Being tired is one thing but being fatigued…that’s a different beast. When you are fatigued your muscles ache, your reflexes are slowed, you experience brain fog, you’re chronically tired and you can become moody.  These are just a few symptoms of fatigue but those are enough to make you want a cure, and fast.  2020 has been quite the year.  When the semi-lockdown first started I knew it was going to be a while before a treatment was developed.  I was prepared to stay inside for a few months if it meant that summer would be mine for the taking.  Never did I imagine that we would be less than 45 days from the end of the year and re-entering semi-lockdown.  I was certain that Pooh and I would travel for Christmas.  I was sure that I would be able to get together with friends and family for our annual celebrations.  Instead we are bracing ourselves for holidays apart from loved ones, at least 3 more months of virtual school, and lots of Netflix watching.

    2020 is out here throwing a temper tantrum and knocking everything off the table.  Yesterday I found myself saying, “yo, this is a mess”!  I’ve never seen a world like this.  I feel like Ernest Hemingway, “people are dying who never died before”.  That quote may seem funny because it is ridiculous but that was Ernest’s truth.  Things were so messy in his world, at the time, that the description, to him, was accurate.  Ernest wanted to fix things, put it back the way it was or make it better.  Ernest failed to acknowledge that he was trying to fix life.  But you can’t fix life.  Life is a mess!

    So how do you stay sane during the mess?  What is the treatment for this type of fatigue? I wish I knew but, like Sway, I don’t have the answers.

    The only real solution is to embrace the mess.  Many have found excitement by attending virtual brunches, sip and paints, meetups, happy hours and dance parties.  Fitness instructors have taken their workouts online.  Families are spending more time together, eating dinner together, talking more, and playing games.  People have found many coping mechanisms but even those mechanisms aren’t hitting like they used to.  So what is the answer?  The answer is pivot.  Find something new that brings you joy.  I have started decorating my house.  I’ve been in this house for almost 8 years but was always on the go.  I never realized how many things I wanted to do in the house until I actually spent more time inside than I did in the streets.  I’m taking my time with decorating, it takes me at least 6 weeks to make up my mind anyway.  Decorating is new to me, it’s exciting.  I realized that was the key to my sanity.  I needed something new and fresh.  Something that would allow me to take my mind off of all that is going on in this world.  That’s how you maintain your sanity.  Escape from the mundane, if even for 30 minutes a day and doing something that is new.  If it’s yoga, meditation, designing, coloring; whatever it is…

    Grab your vision board or make a new one.  Figure out something that you want to go after and do that.  We always say what we would do if we had more time.  Well now is your chance.  You have nothing but time.


    Still clinking,


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    Make It Count!

    Happy New Year Brunch loves!

    This  year is already off to a fast start and I am as excited as a kid in a candy store.  One thing that is always on my to-do list for the new year is creating a Vision Board.  I have created a vision board every year for the past 11 years and I have seen amazing results.  I am a strong believer of seeing, believing and achieving and that motto has not failed me yet.

    Another must do on my list is setting my intentions.  We’ve all heard of the book The Secret.  The book really didn’t say anything we haven’t heard before but it has served as a good reminder of the power of the tongue.  My intention this year is to Make It Count!  Every word, every action, every thing that I pursue; I have to make it count.  Life is like a vapor.  One minute it’s here the next it’s gone.  My intention is to make sure that I am not wasting the time that I am granted here on Earth.

    I want every second of every minute of my life to count.  I want to use my gifts and talents to impact the life of every person I come in contact with.  I have dreams, goals and desires for myself and my family and I want to make sure that everything I do in one way or the other positively impacts what I am building.

    What do  you see for yourself in 2019?  How do you plan on making this life count.  Don’t forget

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    Carpe Diem!

    Always Clinking,




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